I never meant to let you in.

I never meant to let you out.

now all I never meant to do

is all that i can think about.

I never meant to know this much

I never meant to feel so vain.

now all I’m ever praying for

is all she’ll ever take away.

I’d always wanted to believe.

On baited breath the air stood tight.

now it’s too clear for me to see

the echos ringing in the night.

No longer want or feel or pain.

Fleeting wonder what’s become.

A silent dedicated state

somehow alive but always numb.