Endless Love

A Peter Pan Kind Of Love

 

I try not to make a big deal,

not to hold you too tight when we hug.

Cannot say what it means

just knowing your being,

have to try not to make such a fuss.

 

I pretend that I’m perfectly stable,

like a four legged stainless steel table,

like I’ve done all my growing

and learned all my knowing,

have to prove that I’m perfectly able.

 

I have to make you think it’s me.

Slight rejection shows strength in a being.

So I sell you aloof like a gold-plated tooth,

just the shell of a tasteless deceiving.

 

But you must know the truth or I’ll die.

Just this once I will break from the lie:

I need you too greatly,

dependent innately,

I cherish you so much I cry.

 

So you see that I can’t make a fuss,

live in fear that I need your sweet hugs.

But I know that I do,

after all it is you,

and I’m sure that I love you too much.

 

 

I wanted to give you my heart.

I wanted to write you a song,

but all I had left in my heart,

Was a pillow of tears I had cried all the years that I waited while we were apart.

I wanted to sing you a tune,

but all I had left in my throat,

Was the gasping of air choking back all the fear that this magic was merely a hoax.

I wanted to hold you to me.

Now all I have left in my mind,

Are the memories fading sweet embers evading the legacy you left behind.

I wanted to show you my dreams,

but you knew them all in a glance.

Now you’ve tainted me dearly left wounded severely here hopelessly praying on chance.

I wanted to chase you away,

to preserve what was pure in our hearts,

But you showed me this dream is alive in our being and nothing can tear us apart.

I wanted to show you my heart,

so I stood there my armor aside,

And you shielded me softly your love has engulfed me for you I have waited my life.